Rachel-kohshiyi

2012-01-22T03:37:00.002+08:00

I hate school :(

Just wanna have holidays foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

2012-01-10T18:25:00.002+08:00

In a really good mood today!! Super chirpy & happy yeeeehaaaaaaa! :) :) :)

Life's good right now! Would be better if I actually recovered from stupid bronchitis though!

2012-01-06T17:28:00.000+08:00

I love you with all of my heart, forever & always :)

29 months :)

2012-01-01T19:21:00.003+08:00

It's 2012! Doesn't feel any different so yup haha.

I don't do resolutions cos I always end up forgetting them & yeah I don't have the discipline to think of resolutions & actually achieve them! BUTTTTTT FOR 2012 I WILL HAVE ONE GOAL!!

To lose 10kg/22lbs by the end of the year!!!

Ya I know 10kg in a year is epic failz cos people lose 10kg in like 2-3months or something... BUT I CAN'T DO IT SO FAST OKAY, I NEED MY FOOD. I need to eat fried oily fatty yummy food if not I'll be grumpy! So yup I'll take a year to lose that 10kg hahaha. Just gonna increase the number of times I run & maybe add in some curls & crunches!

Okay feeling extremely sick, body breaking down & telling me to chillax on the partying so bye, gotta go drink water!

Connie Talbot - Defying Gravity

2011-12-30T12:50:00.000+08:00

Omggggggg she's so prettyyyyy!

2011-12-29T16:05:00.003+08:00

I have a million photos to upload & edit from the boxing day party... omg, too lazy for this! Will wait for Bra(ndon) to upload the Xmas eve photos + some boxing day photos + hopefully the NYE photos first haha!

So... I've been down with fever & a bad throat. Fever's almost gone now I think but throat's still being a bitch & I'm not helping either by eating spicy/fried food & jomming! Body's starting to ache too sighhhhzzz!

Can't decide if I should go for my run despite my fever?? My friend says I'll die :( Hahahahaha like as if leading my current lifestyle's not gonna kill me enough. No sleep + drinks + joms + insufficient water... it won't be a surprise if I collapse tmr!

You have to learn the rules of the game. & then you have to play better than anyone else. - Albert Einstein

YUP SO TRUE since I always wanna win haha I hate losing, I fucking HATE losing! & I always have to be in control so yup, totally true!!

2011-12-26T10:34:00.002+08:00

Cutesy :)

Breaking Inside

2011-12-23T02:16:00.002+08:00

I caught a chill & it's still frozen on my skin

I think about why I'm alone by myself no one else to explain

How far do I go no one knows

If the end is so much better why don't we just live forever?

Don't tell me I'm the last one in line

Don't tell me I'm too late this time

I don't wanna live to waste another day

Underneath the shadow of mistakes I've made

Cos I feel like I'm breaking inside

I, I, I, I don't wanna fall & say I lost it all

Cos maybe there's a part of me that hit the wall

Leaving pieces of me behind

& I feel like I'm breaking inside

Out here nothing's clear

Except the moment I decided to move on and I ignited

Disappear into the fear

You know there ain't no coming back when you're still carrying the past

You can't erase, separate

Cigarette in my hand, hope you all understand

I won't be the last one in line

I finally figured out what's mine

I don't wanna live to waste another day

Underneath the shadow of mistakes I've made

Cos I feel like I'm breaking inside

I, I, I, I don't wanna fall & say I lost it all

Cos maybe there's a part of me that hit the wall

Leaving pieces of me behind, leaving pieces of me behind

& I feel like I'm breaking inside

I won't be the last in line

I finally figured out what's mine

I don't wanna live to waste another day

Underneath the shadow of mistakes I've made

Cos I feel like I'm breaking inside

I, I, I, I don't wanna fall & say I lost it all

Cos maybe there's a part of me that hit the wall

Leaving pieces of me behind, leaving pieces of me behind

& I feel like I'm breaking inside

& I feel like I'm breaking

& I feel like I'm breaking inside

2011-12-21T06:38:00.001+08:00

HI HI! Yup I have red/orange hair now! Hahahaha & my curls got cut off too :( I only asked for a trim so yeah super upset my hair's now straight!! HATE STRAIGHT HAIR!

2011-12-17T06:41:00.001+08:00

guess who's back (back again)! hahahaha back from milo!! woohooooo came back with some cash since i managed to qualify & bowl in the masters! but whatever, not like i can use ringgit in SG haha, that's not the point though, point is... I WON CASH FROM ELSEWHERE HAHAHAHAHAHAA YIPEEEEEEEEEE THAT WAS THE BEST COS I WON SGD!!!! ahhh i love you :)

oh, cant believe i just partied & drank like a whore 3hours after coming back to SG, & cant believe i'm typing this as i'm trying to sort out my blurry vision from the drinks mmmhmm i'm amazing like that~~~

2011-12-09T06:44:00.002+08:00

Yup blogging at 6.45am in the morning, no joke! Hahahaha well... my body clock's been pretty screwed up since exams ended! Eh no, it's been screwed up even before exams ended so yeah, it's just waaaay worse now! Been sleeping at like 8-9am in the mornings & waking up when the sun sets at around 7pm?? Yup ridiculous! Hahaha.

My post exams been pretty epic so far I guess... Not gonna talk about it but yeah haha crazy nights mmmhmmm. Anyhooo, I'm leaving for KL tomorrow! Yup going for milo... Not v excited about it but okeh yeah whtv.

Will be back on the 16th! :)

2011-12-02T02:16:00.000+08:00

"maybe it's not blood bonds that make us a family. perhaps it's the people who know our secrets and love us anyway, so we can finally be ourselves" - gossip girl

2011-11-28T05:52:00.001+08:00

Hahaha I love my sister :)

2011-11-25T05:26:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna sleep my weekends away. CAN'T WAIT!!!! :D

Done with this semester, done with finals, done with nationals! SLEEP & CUDDLE, sounds like a good plan! :D

Oh... Must remember to get all my balls cleaned & conditioned before rolloffs. Mehhhh party pooper.

2011-11-24T02:41:00.002+08:00

More in love than ever, 27.5 months & counting.

How can anyone be so sacrificial? I dont know how you do it, makes me feel so loved :')

Ahhh bliss <3

2011-11-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

I'm doomed for finals! Have done absolutely nothing during study break except have fun... Hahahaha oopsies!

Anyway, created a tumblr!!

rachel-kohshiyi.tumblr.com!

That wasn't v hard to guess, was it? Hahaha.

2011-11-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

HAI LOW! :D

Too lazy to upload all pictures from halloween 2011 so I'll just upload these 3 haha. 'twas a super fun night :) :)

So school's out! Study break for a week, finals for a week & I'm done with this semester!!! This semester has been extremely tiring, no joke!

Let's play a love game:

We sweet talk. Play fight. Talk 24/7. Tell each other good morning and night every day. Take walks together. Give each other nick names. Hang out with each others friends. Go on dates. Talk on the phone all night long. Hold each other. Kiss and hug.

& whoever falls in love first loses.

Heh saw that on wattpad!

2011-10-31T01:52:00.001+08:00

Bitch I will hunt you down.

Trouble for me

2011-10-23T17:06:00.002+08:00

Black jack, whiskey straight

Every day changes your life

You got the look that you know you're real bad,

Yeah baby, you're right

Everybody loves you

Baby you're the king of the night

And I'm the only one making sure to stay

Out of your sight

You know I can make your night

You wanna get it

You got something that I like

But I might regret it

Me and you, we're a disaster

And you're only a danger to me

But the party ain't the same without you

That's why you're so good for everybody else

But you're trouble for me, yeah, you're trouble for me

Trouble for me

Sweet talk, here we go

Tell me something credible

You drive me crazy

Every time I smell your cigarettes and cologne

You know I can make your night

You wanna get it

You got something that I like

But I might regret it

Kiss, kiss, tip your glass

I'll do whatever you ask for

But if you want my love

You can only find it on the dance floor

2011-10-23T15:38:00.002+08:00

Because you broke my heart :'(

2011-10-17T11:01:00.000+08:00

Blogging from my phone for the first time! BB browser sucks ballz seriously.

I really don't know what to do/say to you anymore. I get so irritable even though I don't mean it, I still want this to work but it feels like its dying even before I expect it to :'( There isn't even anything I can blame except that both of us aren't putting as much effort as we did last time. & when this happens, no amount of chemistry's gonna save us :'( Sigh, what should I do!!!!!!!!

Ugh depressed & frustrated. I'm sick of waiting for someone to sweep me off my feet again.

2011-10-03T01:11:00.002+08:00

Sick, down with a terrible cough & bad throat :(

I've had 4 cups of gongcha in 2 days hehe, bliss!

MY THROAT IS HURTING & ITCHING SO BAD I FUCKING HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!!

Ugh ok gonna go sleep now, I've got FT dining laterz zzzzz g'night!

Khmer Delight

2011-09-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

So yesterday I visited Khmer Delight, Singapore's only Cambodian restaurant!! & nope, I'm not a food critic or whatever. I had to do my Sociology of Food assignment, which was to write a food review on any ethnic cuisine - How is ethnic identity expressed in this restaurant?

Have no idea why I decided on Cambodian food, maybe cos I went to Cambodia & I really liked the culture, the people are so genuine & nice!!!! Or maybe cos it's the only restaurant in Singapore & I wanted to try. Or maybe cos................

THEY SERVE FRIED SPIDERS & FRIED CRICKETS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahaha didn't manage to order that cos it was sold out. SERIOUSLY CAN YOU BELIEVE THAAAAATTTT. SOLD OUT LEH, FRIED SPIDERS & CRICKETS!!

Anyhooo, this restaurant's located at:

922 East Coast Road

Lazy to post the rest of the pictures cos it's for my assignment & like I said, I'm no food critic haha but the food was really quite good honestly!!

MUST TRY THE FISH AMOK, SUPER YUMZ OMG FINISHED IT ALL BY MYSELF DAMN YUMMEHHHHHHZZZZ!!

Price wise, it was so-so lah. I ordered banana salad, white rice, chicken, fish amok, veggie, dessert & it was like about $70+? If you've never had Cambodian food, then I guess it's not too bad to try! Very different from the Cambodian food I had in Cambodia though... or maybe it's just me :O It's pretty similar to Thai food, like the flavour & stuff but less spicy & I think easier to eat?

Okay I'm getting bored by my own post so abrupt change of topic thanks.

WENT TO WATCH THE F1 SINGTEL SINGAPORE GRAND PRIX TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you ** for the surprise hehehe knowing how much I love F1 ^^ Had a happy evening :) :) Except I was really angry by the race!!!! Vettel sucks balls he makes the race damn boring to watch knnz. & omg Webber overtook Alonso 4 times & made me so angry!!!

It's pouring like mad outside now fuckz, don't wanna go for class later :( :( Yeh.. my class is not till late afternoon somemore HAHAHAHAHA.

On a separate note, SUniG was last sunday & I forgot to mention... SMU GIRLS OVERALL CHAMPS HEEHEE & I got ze gold medal for doubles & silver for team! :) :) Hehe we had a total of 2 golds (masters, doubles), 1 silver (team), 1 bronze (doubles)! Yipeeezz!

Okay back to writing the damn food review ):

2011-09-24T03:41:00.003+08:00

Sweet Caroline... BA BA BA~~

Stupid song stuck in my head thanks to SarahJoy!!!!

Random thought about all my bad habits:

1. Extreme hatred for public transport so I keep on cabbing (like srsly I don't rmb the last time I took a train to school...)

2. I'm a bags & shoes whore!!!!! I CAN'T STOP SHOPPING FOR THEM!! & even when I'm broke & not shopping for them, I'll browse & look at them online & then bookmark & add to cart/check out when I have the cash, it's so sad because I don't even use more than half of my collection.

3. I'm a major procrastinator

4. I'm insensitive towards others' feelings but when it comes to mine... NYEHAHAHA SUPER SENSITIVE LIKE SOME CRAZY PMS/MENOPAUSE/PSYCHOTIC BITCH

5. I'm mean...in general

6. Have horrible eating habits. When I don't eat, I literally starve myself for the whole day/few days & eat nothing. But when I start eating, I gorge & binge, I don't even waste time chewing. Yeah chewing's a waste of time, see, that's how bad it is. OHHH, I'm also the worst person to have a meal with hahahahahaha I'm gross & extremely unglam TOO BAD

7. I sleep too much it's unbelievable

8. I'm easily distracted, it's too hard to... OMG I WANT TO SHOP FOR BAGS! Oh sorry, I meant it's too hard to focus. Did I really mean to say that??

9. I'm horrible at making decisions!!!!!! It freaks me out & makes me panic when I have to decide between (a) & (b) or whatever, especially when people are rushing me to decide!!!

10. I can't prioritize, I just do whatever floats my boat teehee!

Ok this is boring me, gna resume shopping online WAAAAAHHHH just added 3 tops, 1 pair of pants, 1 jacket to my cart & it's only $52!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-09-16T01:50:00.000+08:00

My hair is really long now...

2011-09-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

So much work to do dammit, really have no clue why I'm here when I'm supposed to be finishing up my work & heading to sleep!!

Yawn, school aside, life's been pretty good to me & I've been pretty much happy in general.

2011-09-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

I can't feel my legs!!!!!!!!! :( So sore so painful omg helppppppp :(

Anyway, I'm annoyed. Pfft kids. So rude. People have feelings okay! Hahaha who am I to say, seriously. But really, I'M ANNOYED!!!

K I need to pee.

No, I can't walk to the toilet, my legssssssssssssssssssssssssss! This sucks.

2011-09-06T17:14:00.003+08:00

OLA! So... I'm supposed to be doing readings now (WHICH I WAS & WILL BE DOING AFTER THIS POST) but I got tired!

Nothing much on my mind lately except that I can't believe time is passing so quickly!! Tamp circuit's this saturday!?!?! WHY SO FAST!! & THAT MEANS SUNIG'S NEXT WEEK WTF X10000!! This is all happening too fast I NEED TO BREATHE!!!!!! Ok I know I'm damn dramatic but whatever, HAPPENING TOO QUICK STILL I CANNOT TAKEZ ITZ.

Next thing I know, Christmas would be here & I would be turning 22!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I NEED TO EAT SOME CHEW PEW.

Cutesy picture for you, blog.

Hehehehehe so cute I love Richie muaaaaaaaxxxxxxxxxxxxx

2011-09-05T03:13:00.002+08:00

It's only week 4 but I'm dreading school already :( This whole turning over a new leaf thing's draining me outtttt!!!

Can't wait for week 16 to just be done & over with!

On a brighter note, I went shopping yesterday & bought platforms & heels! Leopard prints platforms heehee & black heels! Just a little sad that my heels were not as high as I'd wanted, don't think I'm even 1.8m with them, maybe just 1.75m :(

I get lonely sometimes.

2011-08-26T02:42:00.002+08:00

Just read some blogs of friends/acquaintances & their boyfriends... I really am very lucky :)

I don't have to take the public transport EVER, I don't have to suffer/scrimp with my partner because we're broke, I get to eat/buy whatever I want, I get (almost) all the freedom I want, we don't argue much about trivial matters (at least not anymore), we trust each other a lot.

I'm so so so lucky, you have no idea. I'm so happy we pressed on, even though sometimes I still get mad at you for the lamest reasons but I feel happy again after 5 mins HAHAHAHA yup I'm the problem ^^

Not good enough

2011-08-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

Wish I was smarter, thinner, taller, prettier, richer.

Wish I had more boobs. Wish I was more sensitive towards people's feelings & less sensitive towards my own. Wish I was more understanding & reasonable.

I know how it annoys & affects people, I'm sorry sigh.

I wish I was better.

2011-08-16T18:08:00.002+08:00

Omg haven't blogged in forever, I practically abandoned this piece of crap blog hahaha.

Anyway I'm already back in SG & back to my lazy nua self so duh, I'm not gonna update about the US trip! But being away for almost 4 months made me miss SG food like crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& duh, made me miss *** like mad too heeheeheeheeheehee ^^

On a more depressing note, school has resumed :(

2011-06-23T12:44:00.002+08:00

Got half day off today woohoo & off tmr & got someone to take my shift on friday! Woopeedoo happy galz is me ^^

Anyway went to San Antonio, TX, last week! It was awesomeeeeeeee :) :)

2011-06-01T11:52:00.002+08:00

I can't help myself, it's the way I feel.

& I'm stuck in the moment, & my heart is open, tell me you feel the same.

Am I supposed to pretend these feelings don't exist?

PS. Last weekend was awesome fun! Lionel came all the way from texas to come find me here in shitty ohio & brought me out for 2 whole days of fun! :)

2011-05-28T11:39:00.002+08:00

Thousands of miles apart, I miss you so bad.

Felt even worse today when you sent me those 2 texts. You're not an emotional kinda person, so when you told me how upset you were, my heart literally ached :'(

I'm sorry I'm so far away. I'm sorry I'm not by your side when you need me to be :'(

I wanna go back home to you, I miss you so so so fucking bad :'(

2011-05-11T05:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!!!!!!!

Guess where I am??

I'm in Mason, Ohio!!! Yup FOR REAL. Pretty cold here in the mornings/nights but hot in the afternoons ugh.

Ok bye!

Labour day shopping!

2011-05-07T00:05:00.010+08:00

Shopping on Labour Day with Sarahjoy!

My shopping loot!!!

Sarahjoy's shopping loot! Looks quite sad compared to mine...

Combined stuff!!

2011-05-06T23:50:00.004+08:00

Pictures from 30 April when I first got my cam heehee!

Went out with Perry to get some stuff then headed down to bff's house cos he had some sorta gathering there! His house always gathering one lah so no diff to me hahaha.

Have more pictures to upload but will do it another time!

Okeh back to packing! :(

New toy

2011-05-02T20:08:00.003+08:00

So, on Saturday, I received a surprise!!

I have a new toy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heeheeheehee!

2011-04-21T23:04:00.002+08:00

BFF hee hee!

Last night's ladies night w the girlies was... boring. Or at least I found it boring. Idk, not used to clubbing w a whole bunch of girls again. & zouk was just bad anyway. Shouldve just stayed home/gone pubbing!

Enjoy the easter weekend!

The Quiet World

2011-04-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

In an effort to get people to look

into each other's eyes more,

and also to appease the mutes,

the government has decided

to allot each person exactly one hundred

and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear

without saying hello. In the restaurant

I point at chicken noodle soup.

I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,

proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.

I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn't respond,

I know she's used up all her words,

so I slowly whisper I love you

thirty-two and a third times.

After that, we just sit on the line

and listen to each other breathe.

The Quiet World by Jeffrey McDaniel

One of my all-time favourite poems haha so sweet but slightly awkward. Imagine calling your loved one & getting no reply. What makes you so sure the call's not distorted?!

Club-hopping with my girlies tonight!

Oohhh yeah the bag I ordered online came yesterday, IT'S SO FUCKING PRETTY SIGH I WILL ONLY SPOIL IT ):

2011-04-18T07:17:00.002+08:00

We are nothing but ants in this universe.

I should just snap outta this & move on with life even though it fucking hurts :'(

Not even sure what this whole situation means. Is this some sorta silent separation or...? Maybe we've both reached our limits. I don't think you can give me what you promised. & I don't think I can carry on trying to make this work.

Maybe I've lost that motivation to wna make this work. & maybe it's because I no longer feel important. Or maybe it's because you've taken me for granted cos I never seem to be away from you. I miss feeling wanted, y'knw?

I miss all the sweet nothings, I miss those times where we would be out till 5-6am doing nothing but talking just because you didn't wanna leave me & start missing me. I still miss you ALL THE FUCKING TIME, but I don't think you do.

Maybe it's time to say goodbye.

2011-04-18T04:18:00.005+08:00

I was so upset the previous time I posted that I forgot to say...

SUMMER IS HERE!!!

Aiya the effect of saying that's alrdy gone cos I ended my exams last wed & that alrdy feels like a distant memory cos I've been partying almost everyday since then!!! Non stop hits!

& another exciting/money-spending/liver-killing week awaits me. Gg drinking with my freshies on monday, blackout (smu party) at zouk on tues (which I'm considering skipping), wed ladies night with my girlfriends, thurs dblO maybe with girlfriends, Jamie's 21st on friday & possibly partying again on sat night! Sigh $$$$$.

Ok let the pictures work their thing. Credits to BFF Kenneth btw!

& the most epic picture of the night...

Wait for it... wait for it...

Hahahahahahahaha!!

Anyway after partying, the 4 of us ended up gg to Kenneth's place to chillax & continue party part 2. But walau, end up go there cook maggi mee, drink a bit, bob to music & Perry fell asleep. So Bryan & I played DDR & Wii the entire morning!!!! HAHAHAHA FUCKING EPIC I SWEAR IT WAS DAMN FUNNY. Oh yeah Kenneth fell asleep too. So we were the only 2 jokers bringing the house down! HAHAHA.

Ended up reaching home at 11am+ after breakfast! Yawn, slept till 9pm so yeah it's 4.30am now & I'm more awake than ever! ): I'm totally living in a different timezone, getting ready for my 3 months in US hahaha.

Okay back to drama serials, bye!

2011-04-15T18:42:00.001+08:00

What did I do wrong again this time? :'(

Lomo

2011-04-12T02:51:00.003+08:00

2011-04-11T04:29:00.000+08:00

Approximately 12.5hrs to my first paper. I'm gna go into the exam room & see the paper &...

Yup, I'm DOOOOOMEDDDDDDD!!!!!!! Then again, I have no one to blame but myself cos I'm Queen of procrastinating, laziness and good-for-nothings! Wooooo come all you little minions who feel me!

Well at least it's a 5pm paper & not 8.30am!! I've an 8.30am paper on wednesday okay, TORTUROUS. & worst part is I can't NOT sleep... Yeah I usually go without sleep if I've an 8.30am paper cos it's better than NOT waking up for the paper at all!?!? As I was saying, I can't NOT sleep on tuesday night cos I've 2 fucking papers on wednesday!! ): ): So it's either I... not wake up for my 8.30am paper or I feel fucking tired for my 1pm paper. SIGH.

On a happier note, WEDNESDAY WOULD BE MY LAST DAY!!!!!! Yes I end damn early this sem! 1 week earlier than the last day of exams woopeedoo!!!

After wed, partay partay everydaaaaay~~~~

Sigh but I need all the good luck in the world to get me through tmr/later first... Otherwise, I can always just...

HEE HEE!

2011-04-10T06:10:00.002+08:00

Sunday, Monday, Tuesday... WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!

Can't wait for Wednesday!!!! Finals would be over & school will be out for 4 months!! WOOHOOOO FREE BIRD FOR 4 FUCKING MONTHS +!!!!

Cannot wait!! Have a whole long list of things to do after my exams alrdy! Yipeeeayeayeyipeeyipeeaye!

My legs v numb now :(

2011-04-02T03:09:00.003+08:00

Okay I know it's already 2nd April cos it's past midnight but still...

Happy belated april fool's!

Aiya wishing myself only, nobody reads this shit space hahaha. My 1st april was good & well spent! :) I'm a v happy girl!

Ok should sleep now, need to get up in like erm 4 hours for bowling. Night!

2011-03-31T04:34:00.002+08:00

So chio so chio cannot stand myself heehee!

2011-03-28T01:36:00.002+08:00

Not counting today, it'll be 16 days to my last paper!! Weeeeooooweeet!

Anyway woke up today with the first ever hangover of my life. It's so fucking bad I swear I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT. Okay but not as bad as those who go like "ohhhh I'll never drink ever again". I still will, but just not whisky I guess. Everything smelled like puke to me today!!! & my shampoo smelled like whisky!!! But I guess it's just me...............

Okay suddenly flooded with depressing thoughts. Don't feel like typing anymore.

2011-03-25T04:21:00.002+08:00

Just spent 15mins reading different posts about people falling in love with their best friends. What if the person you're in love with, wasn't your best friend, but is now your best friend. Counted or not?

I'm a lousy best friend anyway lah huh.

2011-03-24T02:29:00.003+08:00

24th March now! Not counting today, it'll be 20 days to my last paper!!!!! Cannot fucking wait woohoo will totally bounce off the ceiling after my exams!

K people around me getting really emotional lately. & I HATE HOW I KEEP ON HAVING THESE STUPID MATERNAL INSTINCTS THING WTF IM ONLY 21!!! I need a new puppy, period.

Ahaha saying 'period' reminds me so much of you & how you always say 'I'm cute, period' HEEHEEHEEHEEHEE radiating happiness right now.

Ok quite mean to be happy right now when so many of my friends are like "cant get any worse than this"/"dunno what to do w life" etc etc. Shall be sad with them for a few minutes. Starting in 3...2...1, go.

2011-03-17T05:16:00.001+08:00

WHY LIKE THAT ):

Haven't felt so disappointed with myself in sucha long time ): ): Can't stop sulking & feeling shitty boohooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

2011-03-13T02:12:00.001+08:00

I miss you a lot eh ):

2011-03-10T02:14:00.006+08:00

The things I do for you. I used to think it was all worth it & sometimes I still do actually but not so much anymore... I don't even know why I've these stupid doubts. I know things change & people change but why can't I accept such changes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! H8 h8 h8 h8 myself for being like this!

Maybe I want a different experience. Maybe I'm just not used to this. Or maybe I just miss the past... WHY LIDDAT ):

How is it that you can so easily make me feel so lousy about myself? How is it that I can be so angry at you but smile like an idiot the moment you talk to me? How is it that I can feel so hurt but still want to be with you? How is it that I can't trust you as much as before & you don't bother earning that trust but I still love you all the same anyway?

OR AM I JUST STUPID.

It's approaching the end of week 10... 4 weeks to study break, 5 weeks to finals and SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cannot wait for post exams... Mini getaway trip with XXX woopeeeee! & then WAT US!! Gna be so broke but whtv lah huh, I know my money tree in the corner of my room will SOON grow.

It's been more than a month, still haven't blogged about my birthday but aiya like I said, photos not that big a deal, I had an awesome birthday & that's that.

2011-02-28T21:27:00.002+08:00

Can't believe my recess week flew by JUST. LIKE. THAT. Ok, actually I can lah, I was in school like almost everyday doing projects/presentations & more projects/presentations. Couldn't even find the time to study for my rmss which was like... just now. Hahahaha do-able & quite okay actually!

It's already week 9 zomgz, & I'm alrdy making payment for my flight tickets to US!!! Damn fucking fast ohmagawdz! But me so eggcite 8)

Anyway, yup occurred to me that I STILL haven't blogged about my bday but actually quite sian to blog about it cos the pictures don't really capture my birthday accurately...? Then must like really blog blog about it kind, so lazy you know. ANOTHER TIME LAH OK. V busy this week ):

So... I caught No Strings Attached & I Am Number Four!! I LOVE NSA SO SWEET THE MOVIE HEHEHEHE. #4 was scary... Yeh yeh I know its not a horror movie or whtv, but like all those shocking effects thing DAMN SCARY I KEPT JUMPING IN MY SEAT & uhm clawing the person beside me hahahaha oops. Otherwise, not bad I guess cos Dianna Agron's damn pretty!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok need to memorize presentation script now bye

2011-02-18T01:30:00.003+08:00

My hell busy week is over!!!!! *throws confetti into air & pops party poppers* WHEEEEEE!!

Next paper's on 28 Feb so I still have some time to chillz! Ok lah actually not true, I gotta start catching up on my studies... but I lazy so... hahaha.

Anyway was shopping online on some Korean site & I saw this model, SHE'S DAMN FUCKING PRETTY I CANNOT STOP LOOKING AT HER FACE!!!!!!!

She's damn pretty omg how come so unfair!!! I WANT TO LOOK LIKE THAT ALSO ): ):

Ok back to shopping online/munching on pringles & watching 90210 hehehe

2011-02-14T04:05:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day! Yup it's 4.06am, 14 Feb 2011, as I'm typing this. I'm supposed to be awake by 9am later cos I need to get to sch by 11am but here I am...

Plans for Vday? CAT consultation till 12pm, get my exam browser checked at SMUVista helpdesk, have lunch with Sam, maybe get some work done before class at 3.30-6.45pm, then dinner/movie/do work in school ):

Pretty eggciting Vday I have right!!! Hahahaha kinda miss Vday back in sec sch... Go to school feeling fucking excited cos you've so many gifts to give away & so many to receive! & "special" gifts for the closer friends & "other" gifts for the rest, just for show haha. Not sure if they still do this in SMU but school seems pretty hyped up about Vday! The number of emails I received from the different clubs regarding Vday, the bazaar for Vday in the concourse, the different Vday activities... Actually ya, why SMU so hyped up about Vday!?

Just gna be a pretty much normal day for me. Haha it's week 7 man, I've CAT consultation tmr, Social Psych meeting & consultation on tues, CAT assignment 3 due on wed, CAT midterm exam on wed, LTM interview on wed, Marketing midterm quiz on thurs, Social Psych midterm exam
on thurs!! & I've to bring Richie for his surgery on Friday morning, then its team dinner in the evening & sch training on sat morning.

CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS WEEK TO BE FUCKING OVER.

School aside... Here's a little treat for myself for Vday! Vday-inspired nails that I painted on my own hahahahaha chili red & hot pink nails with white polka dots!

Okay I should at least try to fall asleep now. Oh I only had one meal for the day so I'm fucking hungry now but whattu do, I kinda forgot about dinner ):

Ciao, hope you have a good Vday! Vday is almost everyday for me (:

2011-02-11T20:28:00.001+08:00

Fed-up Friday.

I hate that I think too much!

Okay, gna go put on some makeup so I can go out & face the world. Sch trng tmr at 11am... Still thinking if I shd go...

CNY 2011

2011-02-08T03:16:00.015+08:00

My family don't really celebrate CNY every year cos my family's really small, like I'll only have 1-2 houses to visit & that'll be the end of CNY for me already! Plus, my dad works overseas so usually my family will just spend it at wherever he's working. Actually, I usually don't go with them, I'll just stay in SG & spend it with friends/people who don't celebrate CNY too. Like last year, I rmb spending the first day of CNY at Starbucks in Eastpoint (I think??? Somewhere in Simei wtf) from 5pm-10pm then going to Zouk after that... zzzzzz. Hahahaha.

But this year I decided to follow my sis to genting to accompany my dad cos I was gna go shopping in KL with her hahahaha.

Yup took the coach up with my sis to KL then met our parents there & dad drove us up to Genting (where he lives & works)!

Some lion dance thingy the next day where we got VIP seats duhz hahahaha, I've always been damn fascinated with lion dance btw, I THINK THEY DAMN CUTE!!!!!

Did our hair that day after the lion dance thing! Like I mentioned, I no longer have light brown/golden hair! Hahaha dyed it dark brown/reddish/burgundy whtv hahaha.

Went down to KL with my sis the next day for shopping! Spent like 700RM or sth for my own shopping! Not sure how much my sis spent! Hahaha.

The photos below are all frm my itouch!! YESSSSS MY NEW ITOUCH (PREZZIE FRM MY SS FRIENDS HEHEHEHEHE) CANT STOP PLAYING WITH IT!!!!!!!

Okay birthday post next!

Have been sleeping the entire day today cos I'm still sick & this feeling really sucks. Feel damn weak & bored & weak & bored & nauseous & even more nauseous ): Will be going back to sch tmr!

AUG 2010

2011-02-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

Down with gastric flu!!! ): ): ): Have been having sharp gastric pains, been puking, diarrhea-ed once! How can fall sick on CNY! Suay max! Choi choi choi! ):

I've quite a bit to blog about actually... AUG (hahaha super outdated), my 21st birthday & CNY! But I'm only gna get my birthday pictures tmr so yup... will save that for another post! Will FINALLY post some AUG pictures up & CNY maybe... soon haha.

Not all the pictures below are mine! I stole the first few from facebook, credits to Gwen, Victor, Noer Said & Felix Ker! The bottoms ones are from my cam! I can't remember which photos are from who so they're kinda random!

At the BKK airport! Transiting to Chiangmai!

UFO Bowling Center (no, really)

Chiangmai Night Safari!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EYEGASM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay the rest of the photos below are from my lousy shitty cam!

So how was your CNY? I spent mine in Malaysia! Boringgggggg but oh well, my family doesn't really celebrate CNY! Went up to KL with my sis on wed night (CNY eve) & met my parents there then drove up to dad's apartment in Genting!

Only highlights of the trip... I dyed my hair! No more light brown/golden hair, say hello to dark brown/reddish/burgundy hair! & went shopping with my sis down at KL! Took us uhm almost 4hours to get down ourselves zzzzz but 'twas fun! Spent almost 600RM on my own shopping! Or was it 700RM? ):

Ok malaysia pictures another time!

On a separate note... TOTALLY DIGGIN' MY SHIRT TODAY!!

Yeeeehaaaaaaaaa! It's milhouse from the simpsons & it says "I NERDS" woohooooo! Wore it to school today, yeah was kinda dressed down today BUT I JUST WANTED TO SHOW OFF MY SHIRT HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Ok bye!

What am I doing?

2011-01-22T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm,

No idea.

2011-01-21T02:59:00.002+08:00

I know I said my next post would be about AUG (which was more than a month ago...) but I don't feel like writing about it now! Not in the right mood.

Was in the midst of reading my marketing case study & got distracted... The case study is only freaking 7 pages, why is my attention span so short?!

Got reminded of certain things & started sulking & being upset all over again! I know right, waddup wit me! Stuff like these still remind me of what we used to have :'( I know I say I'm happy now & I tell people I'm VERY happy... ok la, actually deep down inside I still think I'm quite happy haha, but that's not my point. I may be happy or think I'm happy but I think it's human nature to always wish we were 'as happy as we were'?? I dunno la, the grass is always greener on the other side right, we're just greedy! Actually I don't even know what I want?? Maybe I'm just crazy hehehehehehehehehehe ^^

Ok I need to be up in a few hours time for meeting & I still need to complete my case study. Accompanying emo me tonight is a pint of haagen daz green tea pint WOOPEEDOO scream fats!!!!

I'm turning 21 in like what, 9 days! Party details still not even confirmed, stressing me out max!!

I want my olympus pen e-pl1 (white)... somebody buy it for me PLEASE? :(

2011-01-10T02:11:00.002+08:00

Just realised I didn't blog about AUG. Ok next post!

I'm going to sleep soon because I'm GOING TO SCHOOL TMR!! Yesss!! I'm determined to make it to class!! Don't laugh, my class is at 3.30pm but I have difficulties getting to class on time!!

I already missed 1 entire week of school... HAHAHAHAH not like I was even doing anything fruiful or productive!!

Ok my complexion really sucks, I hope to get it fixed before my birthday party!!! Don't wna look like shit! I'M SO EGGCITE FOR MY PARTY!! Slight bumps/obstacles here & there but dealing with it I guess!! The guestlist is longer than I'd expected but I expect no-shows so yup! Themes... STILL THINKING!! I want the perfect 21st!!

Going to drink water & sleep now g'nightz ehvaleebodee! 8)

2011-01-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

Emo kittykat!

Meow.

2011-01-07T03:03:00.006+08:00

OH MA GAAHHH new year's has passed & I didn't blog!!

So how did you spend your NYE countdown & NY?

I spent mine....................................

IN BANGKOK!!!!!!!

HAHAAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHA YUP!!! LAST MINUTE DECIDED TO BOOK A FLIGHT THERE TO FIND TEAR!! AHAHAHAHHA I LOVE DOING SUCH RECKLESS THINGS OMG IM EXCITED JUST THINKING ABOUT WHAT I DID.

So I flew off on 31st Dec at 6am in the fucking morning!! & reached there to be greeted by my current favourite boy :) Hehehe! But 'twas so sad that I only spent 3 days/2 nights with him & I had to come back to my shit hole ): It's not even a week since we separated but I miss him so bad!!!!!!! Long distance is so fucking hard I swear!!! Can't wait for him to fly here!!

Day 1 in BKK - Met him, put down my luggage (practically empty), went to visit his family (mom, aunt, aunt's bf, grandma, family friends), checked out his house, had lunch with his parents, went to a bowling alley, met his coach, ball driller etc. Then his parents dropped us off somewhere & he brought me to feed fishes hehehe so fun! Then went back to nap for awhile since we both didn't sleep the night before! He waited for me at the airport even BEFORE I boarded the plane in Singapore!?!?! Hahaha so cute! After napping, met a few friends, had light dinner then to a pub to countdown!!

Day 2 - CHATUCHAK!!!!!! Solid 10.30am - 7+pm I think? Then he wanted to watch soccer so we went to some beach pub concept place for dinner & drinks then went for dessert at his sister's place & yup! Met his sister & uncle who speaks chinese!!

Day 3 - Supposedly dreamworld but it was closed ): So more shopping at Siam area but I was so broke alrdy so walked around & just enjoyed more time tgt before I flew off in the evening )':

3 days went by so fast!!!!! )':

On a completely different note, school has started.

&&&&&& MY 21ST BIRTHDAY IS COMING I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR MY PARTY CAN?!?!?!?! Location gna be confirmed by this week, have to call up & ask about catering, guestlist is being settled by Jothi (SMU side) & I'm doing the non-SMU people! Coming up with a list of themes too!! OMG SO EGGCITE IM GNA PEEZ IN MY PANZIEZ!!!!!

Ok 2011 better be an awesome year for me!! It started off awesome not only because of tear but also because of other reasons! :) I love the people around me so much!!!!

Kinda late but have a good year everyone!! :)

Xoxo

2010-12-27T00:33:00.002+08:00

Ah low eh ver lee bor dee!

So much has happened since I last blogged! Preparation for AUG, AUG, Post-AUG, xmas eve, xmas, boxing day & all the emotional rollercoasters I've been on!

AUG was awesomeeeee! It was damn fun & yup guess I got to know some people better & definitely changed my impression of some! Post-AUG was... weird somehow. Not only cos of what I've done/been doing but also cos I feel kinda lost?? Like at AUG we had things to do at certain times & we were always with our team mates, but when I'm back, it's like I'm all alone with nothing to do. Hahaha weird.

Anyway alot alot alot of changes in my life!! & I'm actually v excited to blog about them but NOOOO shall keep some things a secret for now hehehe ^^

Oh btw laptop crashed again knnbccb using sarahjoy's laptop now haha fucking laggy pok.

2010-12-13T02:46:00.001+08:00

SUDDEN OUTBURST OF HAPPINESS

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Nobody's gna be happier than me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :DDDDDD

OK BYE!

Glee S02E10 - Xmas

2010-12-11T16:10:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching Glee season 2 ep 10 & I feel sad ): Cos xmas is coming & I don't even want it to come cos my wish is definitely not gna come true ):

What happened to all the magic that's supposed to happen on xmas? All the happiness all the love?

Ok nvm, gotta go pack my stuff for AUG alrdy, need to get some last minute things before I fly off. Sigh.

Hope everyone has a good xmas this year!

PS. Mean girls 2 coming out in Feb 2011 I think. But the trailer's really bad so yeah...

2010-12-09T03:42:00.003+08:00

Nobody knows what it's like to be me. People think I have it easy. FUCK YOU ALL YOU UNDERSTAND.

Okay... I know I dont exactly put myself in other people's shoes either so yup FUCK MYSELF TOO.

So many things I wna tell you SO MUCH JUST TOO MUCH. But I can't. &... I dont even know why. Srsly what the fuck is wrong with me I have a loose screw up there :(

On a happier note, I just ordered mac YUP for my 4am supper! Comfort food comfort food...

2010-12-05T17:56:00.003+08:00

Dont get why people who hate me bother to read my blog/stalk my fb/request to follow me on twitter. FUCK Y'ALL BITCHES GO GET A FUCKING LIFE.

Some even more thick skin send me friend request on fb... seriously?

Oh & I got a follower request on twitter from this dumb slut who goes ard telling ppl she hates me... You rly wna follow me on twitter even though you hate me? Or are you just jealous of me... You hate me so much HUH.

Here's to you

_|_

Rachel owwwwwttt! \/\/

What If

2010-12-04T15:41:00.001+08:00

Here I stand alone with this weight upon my heart and it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried but I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time but I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heartache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time but I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take it back would you still be mine

'Cause I tried but I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used know
What if I had never walked away
'Cause I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time but I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

But I guess we'll never know

2010-12-04T00:56:00.003+08:00

Feel like a fucking kid sometimes. Need to control my childish tendencies fuck.

On a side note, I've been sick for 5 days now. Like TERRIBLY SICK SLEEP 15HOURS STILL SICK KIND OF SICK. Anyway, I've lost 4kg woopeedoo! But still not rly a loss since I actually put on weight during study break WTF. But at least I'm only a few kgs away from 43kg woohoo!! Recovering alrdy anyway but appetite still not here. Had my sis buy me fish soup for dinner but I ended up eating the fish & a few mouthfuls of noodles & throwing away the rest, now I feel like puking everything out again ):

Haven't done anything post-exam-ish since exams ended cos I've been sick. My life is fucking suay I swear! Please tell me I'm not crazy & that I'm still perfectly sane I need to keep my life on the right path & take fucking control over my emotions & attitude YUP I'm still fucking sane I can feel it, it's all in my head...

I should rly start thinking with my mind & not my heart. My heart breaks ALL THE FUCKING TIME.

2010-11-27T01:46:00.001+08:00

Teehee lubz chu too cutesy you qt-pie ;)

Muax muax muax!

Yeh yeh suck on it bitches cutesy loves me, not youuuuuuu

Young & happy

2010-11-18T02:18:00.003+08:00

You know there are songs that make you nostalgic & think about the times you were so young & happy, yup playing on itunes now & I think about how I was in JC...

Even though I rly rly srsly HATED my JC, I was so much happier (than I am NOW). Didnt have a care about anything in the world & nv had to worry about my studies/friends/social life. Now everything's just gg down down down down down 3, 2, 1... GONEEEEEEEEE.

No limits no restrictions nothing. Not saying my friends now are horrible. But my life is generally a mess now. I'm a fucking wreck I have no idea what I'm doing 99% of the time. Sometimes I get so fucking emotional I hate myself, & sometimes I feel like I've lost the ability to even feel anything. Why am I so fucking disgusting you tell me.

Why do we complicate matters? Wish life was much simpler. Wish ppl weren't so complex. FUCKING WISH I HAD BETTER THINGS TO DO. All wishful thinking rachel srsly wake up your fucking idea

Trying so hard so hard so so hard to make myself feel better but ultimately, I'm all alone & depressed :'(

12 more days

2010-11-18T02:05:00.002+08:00

YUP 12 more days to the end of exams!

Once upon a time, there lived a... One day, she... & then... Now she's... forever more.

FUCK THIS SHIT

Talking to the moon

2010-11-14T02:55:00.003+08:00

Where is the guy whom I've always dreamed of who will sweep me off my feet?

We will fall madly in love & live happily ever after.

I know you're somewhere out there, somewhere far away.

Gdbye FB!

2010-11-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

So yup, I finally managed to gather all willpower & deactivate my fb!! It'll be deactivated till after my exams... I hope!! Hahahaha my fb games & fb-ing are too distracting, I end up not doing any work when my laptop is switched on!! ): But eh it's only been a day & I must say, it's rly quite effective hahaha. Like I have completely no motivation to switch on my laptop!! But I've to do research for my 2 essays so no choice!

Monday's my ES paper & I haven't done a single fucking thing. Haven't even bought the textbook from the beginning of the sem till now... CHAMPION HOR? Hahah & the prof doesn't even upload the slides from the class so I'm doomed lor, I have no materials to study at all, cham liao! Gg for my paper not only w a clear mind but with an empty head (Y)

Anyhooooo, the sem is over! I mean excluding study break & exams but yeeeehaaaa! Quite fast actually, I would say that this sem passed hell alot faster omg must be the company of my friends + my 3-day school week HAHAHA & also maybe cos this sem's mods are WAAAAAY more interesting. Kinda dreading next sem though, 4-day week plus 12pm classes... I hate 12pm classes, I luv 3.30pm/7pm classes!!!!! ): I shd totally go be a part-time student...

I think I have a mental problem, I keep wanting to eat/slp/eat/slp/eat/slp even though exams are in less than 2 days?!?! YUP YUP I'M CRAZY.

Ok abrupt ending here hate it but ya ran out of things to complain BYE

Ooooooo wait shall end off with pictures of my new hair TEEHEEE (haha new hair hahaha NEW hair HAHA k nvm)

HEHEHEHEHEH K BYE!

2010-11-06T04:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really wonder what I'm doing.

A part of me knows things might never be the same ever again. How? Life's too short to be upset right. I get so tired trying to make others happy, why isn't anyone trying to make me happy!! Then again, only I can take away this feeling of sadness, only I can tell myself to stop feeling fucky... HAIYERRRRRRR why like that sux2bme!

Well at least I know that if anything happens, I still have you to count on cos you'll always be there for me. SOOOO thankful for you. Just feel like running to you & crying in your arms now cos you're the only one who genuinely cares :'(

I wna move out :( Have no idea how things ended up like that, have no idea when I started hating home, have no idea when I started being annoyed at the stupidest things in the house. HAVE NO IDEA WHEN YOU STARTED BECOMING SO DAMN FUCKING BIASED. I'm not supposed to hate you but I rly rly rly dislike you...

I'm turning 21 soon.

2010-10-31T03:34:00.002+08:00

It's been exactly a month since I last posted anything. A lot has happened since then!

Finals are in about 3-4 weeks, I'm flying off to Chiangmai for AUG in about 6 weeks. Everything's happening so fast, the year's almost about to end OMGZ XMAS XMAS XMAS!! :) :) :)

I had so much to rant so much to say but my mind's blank right now.

My complexion sucks & I'm getting fat.

2010-09-30T06:11:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wish I knew everything.

I wish I could read people's minds.

& I wish I could manipulate their thoughts.

Ethicssssss

2010-09-26T04:05:00.003+08:00

Ethics midterm on Monday & I'm so not prepared for it!!!!! Gg into panic attack mode now... 3, 2, 1... *BAM BAM BAM GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!* :O :O :O :O

5 chapters tested but I've only completed 2 & it's saturday night/sunday morning 4am alrdy HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW. & I know that when I go on to study the next 3 chapters, I'll probably forget the first 2. So I should either 1) not study anymore 2) study 1 more chapter so I rmb 3 chapters instead of forgetting everything 3) not go for my paper.

& I've got polsci term paper to write also & that's due on wed SIGH SIGH SIGH too scared to go to school!! & I'm actually thinking about writing for this week's short paper for SOFF (due on tues btw). Being too ambitious here I know thxxxx.

YA & what am I doing now? Making some lame effort to blog PUI! ):

Anyway, my tummy feels weird right now... Should I do something about it? & the box of Mac & Cheese is staring at me, I'm v tempted to go cook it. NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM teeheeee!

My ass hurts from sitting on the chair for too long. I think if I sit for too long right, my ass will become flatter/smaller, will it?

On a more depressing note, I'm extremely upset that I'm not watching this year's F1. Watched the past 2 years in SG but not this year & I rly cannot get over it ): ): ): ): ): ): Alonso in pole position somemore!!!!!!!!!! (*@#&$(@*#)($@

I... have.... some... feel... for... online... shopping... again... noooooooo... $$$...

OK MAC & CHEESE HERE I COME

SSSSS

2010-09-21T01:13:00.002+08:00

Long time since I entered bloggerrrrrr. I shd get an award everytime I blog man. Hahaha!

Anyway, I'm running for the 7th SSSSS Exco!! For those who dunno, SSSSS stands for SMU Social Science Students' Society!

Yeh man, totally taking advantage of Incendia heeheehawhaw!

Abrupt change of topic. Why must all my shows only start when I have school!! Nothing came out during summer pui pui pui!!

Gossip Girl Season 4 & How I Met Your Mother Season 6 on Mondays

Glee Season 2 on Tuesdays

Hellcats Season 1 on Wednesdays

The Big Bang Theory Season 4 on Thursdays

WHY WHY TELL ME WHYYYYYYYY!! Ok I need to chillaxxxxxxxxxx hahahaha ok done. Eh but srsly ah... must like that or not?!

Can't believe it's week 6 of school alr btw. But can't wait for week 6 to be over also hahaha! Week 6 over = all presentations over wooopeeedooooo! Love how all my presentations are before recess week this sem! & only 1 midterm this sem but alrdy stressing me out I wna vomit big time ugh ugh ugh *gags*

Did I mention how fucky my sleeping pattern has been?? Totally screwing myself upside down downside up inside out outside in (wah I'm so funny I can't take it)... It's school term but I'm sleeping at ridiculous 7-8am!!! & on some days, I wake up at 7pm. What is wrong w me!!!

I rly hate how random this post is. I rly hate how random my thoughts are. They're like those y'knw random monsters that pop out when you're in a haunted house y'knw? Ok bad analogy but whatever DEAL W IT. Haiya I hate it la sucks ok bye

Think

2010-08-17T04:14:00.002+08:00

If you THINK you are beaten, you are,
If you THINK you dare not, you don’t,
If you like to win, but THINK you can’t,
It is almost certain you won’t!

If you THINK you’ll lose, you’ve lost
For out in the world we find,
Success begins with a person’s WILL
It’s all in the state of MIND.

If you THINK you’re outclassed, you are,
You’ve got to THINK high to rise,
You’ve got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize

Life’s battles don’t always go
To the stronger or faster one,
But sooner or later the one who wins
Is the one who THINKS he can!

I didn't write this. It's been on my wall for quite some time now. I got it in sports camp in JC, I guess you can find it online written by someone.

I read it all the time but I don't understand why sometimes I don't practise what the poem's trying to say (ie. Sometimes I don't think I can, & I proceed to cultivate negative thoughts in my head). OH WELL.

School is starting in a few hours' time. SIGH. Rachel owwwwwtttt \/\/

Hello Year 2

2010-08-16T04:57:00.002+08:00

Oh God. School starts tmr :'( I'm literally gna cry cos I hate school!! I start on tues so I say tmr since it's what, 5am in the bloody monday morning. I could rly have another 4 months of summer oh pleeeeeeeeeeeease :'(

Anyhoooo, zouk last night with my babiessssssss, pictures not with me cos as usual, I don't bring my cam out!! Shall wait for Jamie to upload the pictures first!! First time bathing a drunk girl ytd... oh well poor girl. Rly admire myself for volunteering to bathe her though!! *gives self the most approving look* Heard she's fine anyway, like she was dead drunk to the world REALLY, SHE FELL IN HER OWN PUKE & JUST STAYED THERE UNCONSCIOUS, & I heard she woke up without any headache or whatsoever. Hahahaha. Zouk ytd with Jothi, Jamie, Shreeya!! & their facis/freshies Annabelle, Joey/Joel (??), Gerald & Niko! 'twas a night with bad music but I love my SS babes!! :) :) :)

O ya met up with my freshies a few days ago too. MMMMMM my freshies are rly cute, I don't even know what's the right word to describe them actually. Hahahaha!

School fo me tmr, I had tons of readings to do since last week for week 1 (ie. this week) & I've a freakinnnnn quiz on my first class BUT I HAVEN'T DONE NO SHIT FML BIG TIME GNA SLEEP ON MY LAPTOP SO I ABSORB ALL MY READINGS G'BYE EVERYBODEHHHH SEE Y'ALL AT SCHOOOOOOLLLLLL :(

PS. Thinking of joining the winkle mall flea thingamajig fo this saturday!! A lot of stocks to clear!! COME SUPPORT ME?

2010-08-10T02:18:00.003+08:00

Hahaha blog getting boring cos I'm lazy & I kinda lost the interest in blogging, I prefer tweeting!! Anyhoooo, since it's getting boring, uploading some pictures will do it some good.

Pictures I stole (as usual) from fb cos I'm too lazy to bring camera around & I h8 my cam anyway! I want a new cam :((( Pictures from SS camp with my awesome freshiessssssss & duh awesome faci MEEEEE & co-facis!

Fellow facis from other grps, feel da social science luvvvvvvv :)

Freshies!! :)

Jothi!! Favourite whoosh girl :)

I baked cupcakes on friday morning!! Hahahahaha bb says the icing's too sweet. But I expected it cos I was kinda generous with the icing sugar HAHAHA oopzzzz eh but made with love okeh! Will post pictures of my cute cupcakes soon! But the cake itself was yummy, no doubt!! :) Bb asks for muffins nxt time! All hand baked ok, like literally. COS IVE NO ELECTRIC MIXER. Freaking mixed everything with my bare hands & got blisters after baking :(

Was told just now that hungry ghost fest has started... Idk what that means except that I shdnt rly be out at night!! WHYYYYY V SCARED OK, I BELIEVE IN ALL THESE SUPERNATURAL THINGAMAJIGS & I V SCARED & IMAGINATIVE ONE KNOW. Nobody is allowed to play tricks on me I WILL GET ASTHMA I TELL YOU!!!

I'm so depressed that school's starting next week. LIKE SERIOUSLY. How come I feel as though summer hasn't started!! But I like sem 1's actually. Cos bb can send me to school & have lunch tgt :) Okokok need to start getting into the SMUgger spirit & start mugging, suckzzzz need to improve my gpa! & deal with all the other commitments at the same time!

Gg to watch shows now! Bb & I are finally on the same episode for big bang theory hahaha!

SS Post-Camp @ Wavehouse

2010-08-01T02:16:00.004+08:00

Not many pictures cos I didn't take out my cam at all! Pictures below were all grabbed from fb, those that had me tagged in them. Would've had more pictures if I'd brought my cam, then you wouldn't be seeing only pictures of me!! Hahaahaha. Anyway I was dunked within 10mins of my arrival by my freshies :( & that spoilt my watch!!!!! :'(

Co-faci!! :)

Jamie & Jothi, after I was alrdy dunked & wet & gross :( Much love for both of them!! :) :)

Alpha-male Samuel, Jothi, Shreeyaaaaaaaaaa, SooHo & Aaron (eyeliner!!!!)

Tanuuuuu :)

Life's good. But worried for 1 mod that I still haven't gotten, v impt mod!!! :( It's the pre-requisite to alot of mods, so dead so dead so dead :(

Hahah on a happier note, can't believe it's been a year. Still love it when you whisper i love you into my ear & esp love it when you act all kiddy & childlike v v v v cute, what's there not to love!!

ECP tmr morning with favourite person hehe I gotta go sleep!

PS. Been playing grand theft auto (GTA) chinatown wars A LOT lately esp since bb bought it for me!! Omg can't stop playing I LOVE GTA!!!! Okok bye bye.

2010-07-19T21:58:00.006+08:00

F M L

No Noze

2010-07-13T02:42:00.002+08:00

Been having a flu since last thurs & still not recovering nor showing any signs of recovery!! SUCKS to be sick! Been drinking the lemony lemsip thingamajig which bb keeps making for me hehehe I even made him wake up & boil the water for me, but still not recovering!! :( :( Help, I need an instant remedy cos I've to be at SS camp in abt 16hrs time!

I haven't been blogging much cos I'm lazy & I'm starting to hate this space! I only come here when I rly have things I wna say hahaha OWELLLLLL

Anyway was thinking about what was said the past few days & I kept smiling to myself ahhaha sucha fool for youuuuuuuuu *croaks* ahaha yeah my voice sounds rly bad now cos of the flu & sore throat & whatnots! But I'm honestly happy/blessed hehehe everything's so worth it :) Can't ask for more! Srsly, what did I do to deserve sucha good life!!

Okay that aside, had pre-camp dinner ytd with my freshies & other dinner crashers! 'twas good! I don't have weird/annoying freshies so all's good woohoo!

O ya how could I forget. Didn't get into top 12! But was kinda expecting it esp after round 2 auditions OHWELL! But at least I don't have to buy tickets cos I'll be there!

Feeling so lazy I've to go pack for camp naowwww I shd just have an emergency evacuation bag since I keep staying out nowadays! Flu pls go away, I'm getting so annoyed blowing my nose its starting to hurttttttt ow ow owwwww help :(

Did I mention, my F21 packages are here woohoo! But the tennis shoes arent my size, so depressed!! I ordered 38 & the shoes stated 38 but they feel like a 40!?! V loose :( But they're so pretty I can't bear to sell them away so I'm just gna wear insoles or sth haha I look like I have long feet now oooooo! The clothes fit perfectly fine woopee!

Waiting for my korean shoes package & bags package!! My wedges!!!! Can't wait hehehe sigh I should stop shopping online. I NEEDDDDDDDDD $$$$$$$

Gotta go naow! RACHEL OWWWTTT \/\/

Unwise

2010-06-23T07:22:00.003+08:00

I finally have all 4 wisdom teeth removed!!! Removed 2 on the right side last year & removed 2 on the left side last thurs! Hahahah finally!!!! No more wisdom teeth problems for me yipee!! Except now I've to focus on getting my left jaw muscles to stop aching & start working so I can eat normally. Have been on a soft/liquid diet for days & it's actually not bad, I lost 4kg!!!!! Hahahahahaha but I miss mac & all that so much. Had my first mac meal today, nuggets!! My mouth got so tired zzzzz. Like the wound is not painful anymore but my mouth cannot rly open?? Like my jaw muscles are paralyzed or what. Hahahaha like they're damn sore & painful from all the jabs :( Crazy 4 jabs super painful!!!!! & the left side of my face looked... swollen hahahaha gross la yuck!

Anyway it's good that all my wisdom teeth are out cos then I can stop wearing my retainers SOON hehehehe!! End of my braces days!! But then agn, cos of the wisdom teeth problems, I didn't wear my retainers for like 3 weeks & now when I wear them it hurts so badly & can't even fit properly :( I don't wna wear braces agn!!!!!!!!! But I want perfectly str8 teeth hahahahaha.

My diet basically consisted of soup (campbell's instant ones!! the powdered ones where you just add hot water hahaha), yogurt drink & smoothie, strawberries (chopped up ones), cereal, oatmeal & ball cakes (haha those xiao man tou thingy that melts in your mouth, y'knw the baby food...)!! All thanks to bb who went to the supermarket to stock up for me hehehehe the soup's rly nice btw!! K I know its damn unhealthy but I like!!! & I lost weight ok so cant be that bad right... Feel like sticking to this liquid diet cos it's making me lose weight so fast!! But I miss eating rice, noodles, FRIES etc etc etc. Still cant rly eat rice yet cos the rice grain will get stuck in that wisdom tooth hole?? Idk what it's called la ok.

Kkkkk it's 7.27am in the morning, I should go to sleep now oops. Did I mention that I've been shopping alot!!!!! Hahahahaha went out looking hideous to shop ok!! & just ordered 2 bags online teehee! Feel like gg out to shop somemore but... OK SEE HOW.

I'm hungry & I feel like having soup but I think I'm gna sleep!! Can lose weight also hahaha v happy with my weight now after losing 4kg!! I hope to either maintain it or lose somemore!! Goodnight/morning y'all!!! :DDDD

Greedy

2010-06-11T01:09:00.002+08:00

I actually think I've quite a good life & I'm quite fortunate as compared to some of the people around me so I don't get why I keep asking for more!! Am I like srsly just too greedy or whuuuuttttt.

I have an awesome family (esp my sis, HELLO SJK!), I have an awesome bf whom I love v v v much & loves me v v v much too (& he's supa understanding/reasonable/sweet unlike some other people's bfs hahaha super ridiculous & uhm, useless OOPZ), I have fun friends HAHA sollie not v awesome when they keep laughing at you. I'm not stupid, I'm not handicapped, I'm not begging on the streets. So I shd be v happy right? K la... actually I'm quite happy la. HAHAHAHAHA.

Idk, I just feel that sometimes I'm asking for too much. Like I get so pissed off at myself when I don't shop online, I get so irritated when I re-wear clothes, I'm too lazy to go for trng when I'm even given the opportunity to train. HAIYA IDK WADDUP WIT ME. GG TO FACE WALL & REFLECT NOW BYE

2010-06-05T14:21:00.000+08:00

I want this :(

http://kiwilump.livejournal.com/4125.html#cutid1

Can't decide whether to get it or not!!! Cos I've no idea how often I'll use it cos film's not cheap but I rly want it cos it's HK & I know I'll use it once in awhile!! :(

(Not) Leaving on a jet plane

2010-06-01T03:04:00.002+08:00

I'm not going. I don't trust ppl v easily y'knw. & maybe, just maybe, I don't trust myself too. Maybe "happily ever after" & fairytales don't exist, but at least, it seems like it is, for now. I can't predict what will happen in the future but I can hope to keep things the way they are now, I hope? Hahahaha whatever it is, I'm glad I chose to stay in SG :) & like what you said, I must make the best out of it so I don't regret not taking the other path!!!!!

I'm staying in SG woopeedoo! Haha being overseas/talking about being overseas reminds me of what you just text me abt trev's phonebill. Hahahahah so cute so cute so cute so awfully sweet I'm gna melt into a puddle of rachieeee (!!!!) teeheeeheeeeeeeee!

Kkkkkk I'm busy (as if). BYEBYE!

Woop woop!

2010-05-26T01:38:00.002+08:00

Okay haven't posted pictures in a long time so just one for the road!

Extremely flat I KNOW hahaha but I refuse to put up the rest cos no no no no.

Life's been gooooood I like I like I like! :)

Honestly I see no point in blogging since I tweet almost every second of my life HEHE kidding! But oh well, been too busy with other stuff! Too lazy to blog also, blogging's so troublesome zzzzz. & everybody's getting tumblr now but I rly don't see a point!!! Cos agn, I'm too lazy teehee oops.

Gg off now! Got other better things to do than sit ard & blog abt pointless things & let crazy bitches know whats happening in ma lyphhhhhh ^^ Yepadidoodaaaa y'knw who you are! *wink wink* hahahahahaha ugh

PXY 3

2010-05-19T04:53:00.002+08:00

Omg a month since I've blogged! Haha so basically, since the last entry, I've:

- completed my exams

- gotten my results, which means I've successfully completed my first year at smu

- gone for my OCIP which turned out to be somewhat like a BSM too in wuzhou, guangxi & guangzhou

- gone for my holiday with my awesome friends at hongkong, zhuhai & then macau with da parents

- enjoyed my summer so far :)

Actually a lot more has happened but I'm really too lazy to blog about it. When I say "a lot more", I actually mean the stupid but incredibly fun/awesome things that happened during the OCIP (PXY) hahahaha man, I miss pxy alrdy! :(

Anyway, it's 4.50am in the morning, I'm really tired, dozing off while typing this shit hahaha.

PS. I love being cuddled to sleep!!!! Teeheeeheeehee I mean, who doesn't? Shall stop before I start sounding mushy & all hehehe! 8)

Goodbye TWC (in 9.5hrs time)

2010-04-17T05:31:00.002+08:00

In 5hrs time, I'll have to be awake & getting ready to go to school.

In 7.5hrs time, I'll have to sit for my TWC finals.

In 9.5hrs time, TWC will be over forfuckingever!!!

As usual, credits to Trev! Lazy to link him but you should know where to find him.

Just a few more pages, & I will try to get to sleep! TRRRRYYYYY!

Soci on monday! For some strange reason, I can't wait to sit for the paper. Not because it's my last paper but I actually feel prepared for that paper!! Hahahah maybe it's cos it's the mod I've been studying (pretty hard) for & I'm guessing it's gna be my major too!

On a totally different note, I need to start exercising fo real!!!! Getting fat & flabby & fucking gross!

10am - 6pm

2010-04-11T08:28:00.003+08:00

Saw sth on somewhere & laughed like there's no tmr. No, not that I saw sth literally funny but the person who said that sth... big joke. Fuck you! You understand?

It's not 830am in the morning! Sunday morning! I haven't slept, but I don't intend to! If I can last, that is. I srsly need to tune my body clock back :( A normal person sleeps at 10pm & wakes up at 6am. I sleep at 10am & wake up at 6pm!!!! & it's exam period now...

AS paper on wed, TWC on sat & soci on mon!! Cannot w8 for everything to end!!!

K, this is a long enough break, back to da notes now!

2010-04-09T06:32:00.002+08:00

Hi!

Nothing to update cos it's study break week (or whtv they call it) & my life's boring! Just here to inform everybody/anybody/somebody/nobody(?) that I'm still alive even from all that boring shitass studying!!

Duh I'll be alive, can't wait for exams to end!! 19th april please please pleeeease hurry come rachel cannot wait!!

Okkkk I'm stroking Richie while typing this ooohhh my little boy, soooo cute! Way cuter than Super! But I guess I won't keep dogs when I've my own place cos bb hates dogs & I'm a bad owner...

K boring, bye!

Power of Your Love

2010-03-31T03:57:00.002+08:00

Lord I come to You

Let my heart be changed, renewed

Flowing from the grace

That I have found in You

& Lord I have come to know

The weaknesses I see in me

Will be stripped away

By the power of Your love

Hold me close

Let Your love surround me

Bring me near

Draw me to Your side

& as I wait

I will rise up like the eagle

& I will soar with You

Your Spirit leads me on

In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes

Let me see You face to face

The knowledge of Your love

As You live in me

& Lord renew my mind

As Your will unfolds in my life

In living every day

By the power of Your love

My Father Lord has been v good to me & will always always be!! He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me :)

The famous words in St Margs' hall: All Glory be to God!

Homebrewed barley

2010-03-29T02:40:00.001+08:00

[UPDATE: It's 3am now, I just got home cos my bro rly agreed to follow me down to 7-11 to get my Pokka Premium Milk Green Tea!! I iz have 3 bottles!!!! Ok if you're lost, read below first hehe byebye]

Today I took 5 buses!!!! & took the train once! NO CAB AT ALL OK, so proud of myself!! Ppl around me know that uhm I haven't exactly been taking the bus/train v often!

Took 2 buses to go find bb to pass him homebrewed barley then took a bus to the train station & took a train to town to meet BFF!! Had an awesome time catching up/bitching etc etc :)

Then took 2 buses back to find bb!! Wanted to take the bus then change to train then change to bus again cos that was actually the only way I knew (besides taking train all the way, train v crowded!). BUT BUT BUT itchy backside me damn act smart lor, the moment I alighted from the first bus (to change to train), I saw the bus that goes to where I wna go!!

So I was like "OMG AWESOME SHALL TAKE THIS BUS INSTEAD OF TAKING TRAIN THEN BUS AGAIN". & I waited 20mins for the motherfucking cb bus!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& when the bus came... the driver fucking drove slower than my grandma's stroll!!!!!!!! Was so so so soooo annoyed on the bus! Ended up taking A LOT longer than expected.

But didn't rly matter la cos when I reached, bb was still busy hahaha so I was sorta just nice!

(Digress: Mummy is crying now. She's watching her usual Korean drama. I just laughed at her teehee!)

I like how I'm trying to control my emotions now. I mean, not rly control, but kinda like keep my emotions in track? Idk! Like stabilize my emotions before I actually say/do anything. Think it's rly helping me/ppl ard me!

I'm craving for Pokka's premium milk green tea damn badly, feel like gg down to 7-11 to get a few bottles!!!! So thirsty :(

I can't wait for this week to be over!!

#1, last week of school y'all!! Kkk minus study week + exams ok.

#2, excited about the weekends! Picnic @ marina barrage with ze kewl jc flenz! 24hr bowling comp! Marc's chalet! Some quality lovely time with bb!

Ok la, there are alot more reasons why I'm looking forward to the weekends cos then I'll force myself to finish up whtv assignments due this week hahahaha off to do some work now! Have been diligently reading sociology too! Needa catch up cos finals are rly close & soci readings can be damn bitchy sometimes.

Shall go ask my bro if he wants to follow me down to 7-11 for drinks!! It's 2.40am, I hope he says yes.